Skinny Love

Kenapa judulnya harus skinny love?yah, memang ketika blog ini saya tulis saya sedang mendengar lagu Bon Iver yang judulnya Skinny Love. Buat yang belum denger, silahkan cek lagu-lagunya

Kenapa harus 'love'?karena 'love' itu universal sifatnya, terlalu luas maknanya, dan untuk mendiskripsikannya mungkin butuh sedikit waktu atau mungkin sepanjang waktu kita.

Ya, pemahaman saya tentang cinta 5-7 tahun bila dibandingkan dengan sekarang jelas jauh berbeda. Dulu, cinta bagi saya kata-kata manis, impian yang indah, satu tujuan dalam hidup. Ya, pemahaman yang mungkin sangat dangkal dan muda. Namun kini, cinta terasa sangat luas, cinta kepada tuhan, keluarga, teman, diri sendiri. Sampai-sampai terasa banyak cinta untuk dibagi. Entah, apakah pemahaman ini benar atau salah.

Ada dua hipotesis dalam berakhirnya sebuah hubungan dalam kacamata saya. 'Cinta harus direlakan', atau 'cinta harus diperjuangkan'. Sampai saat inipun saya masih bingung, karena seperti apapun kita berteori, kenyataan akan selalu berbeda. Ketika kita harus merelakan, apakah benar-benar itu yang kita butuhkan? ataukah tidak ada cara lain. Tipikal seperti ini seperti gabus, tampak padat diluar namun sangat lunak bila disentuh. Tipikal seperti ini kadang menimbulkan banyak traumatik yang mungkin akan mempengaruhi hubungan masa depan. Namun disatu sisi, saya suka dengan tipikal seperti ini. Mereka tampak tegar, dan tidak pernah melihat kebelakang.

Lain lagi dengan cinta harus diperjuangkan. mengandalkan segaya daya yang ada. Kadang sampai rela mengorbankan harga diri mereka yang belum tentu sebanding. Tipikal seperti ini tentunya akan susah beranjak, dan mungkin agak sedikit 'menyedihkan'.

Ya, saya tidak tahu kenapa saya membahas tema seperti ini malam ini. Hanya saja, masih banyak cinta yang harus diperjuangkan. Cinta kepada tuhan, keluarga khususnya orang tua. Mungkin memang jalan hidup tidak selalu sama, begipula cinta, seberapa besar cinta kita kepada seseorang, akan terasa percuma jika terjadi sepihak. Berbenahlah, karena kita tidak akan tahu apa yang akan terjadi di masa depan.

I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

well, happy new year everyone

Last year was an awkward and awful years for me. And i am really glad it come to the end. Okay, enough about 2012.

There was so many wish i've got in this year. Altough i've got some biggest regret (last regret actually). By the time, i never hope anything for this situation. But i am so wrong, at the end i wish i could see her, speak to her, ask her something. But sadly, i can't.

When said 'how are you' is that hard, what point do you have in freeing something?
I am not a fully sinner neither coward. But why i can't just tell?and why you don't?

Oh God, please being easy on me

Mom, am going home!
And for you my deepest regret, sayonara

Love is meeting
The separation
It's a transparent piece of cloth

The Mother

When your mother has grown older,
When her dear, faithful eyes
no longer see life as they once did,
When her feet, grown tired,
No longer want to carry her as she walks -

Then lend her your arm in support,
Escort her with happy pleasure.
The hour will come when, weeping, you
Must accompany her on her final walk.

And if she asks you something,
Then give her an answer.
And if she asks again, then speak!
And if she asks yet again, respond to her,
Not impatiently, but with gentle calm.

And if she cannot understand you properly
Explain all to her happily.
The hour will come, the bitter hour,
When her mouth asks for nothing more.

Adolf Hitler, 1923

This poetry was written by the Germany dictator, Adolf Hitler in 1923. This beautiful poem was dedicated for his beloved mother. Even a dictator who had killed millions of people, love his mother very much